Dont break the silence...

things have been going great.
i finally got a job, got my car back, and im seeing more of my girlfriend.
so basically im really really happy right now.im a little nervous about something, but it will either pass in a few days, or turn into something big. Either way we will be fine.
i love ashley so much!







michael

today has been a rather shitty day.
im kinda pissed but theres no reason for it. i am hating everything with a passion right now. theres nothing to dooooooo.
someone save me. IM me... xleftcoastmikey

p.s. i feel used and cheap.

its crazy nigga!

heyyy, im gonna start writing in this again, so i hope people start looking at it again.
later
mike

address is 994 rt 67 ballston spa ny 12020

hey i havent written in this thing a a long time.
im in a fuckin rehab now. gay shit.
fun shit. write me a letter if ne1 sees this.........

im home :]

Just an old friend coming over
Now to visit you and
That's what I've become
I let myself in
Though I know I'm not supposed to but
I never know when I'm done
And I see you fogging up the mirror
Vapor around your body glistens in the shower
And I wanna stay right here
And go down on you for an hour
And stay and let the day just fade away
In wild dedication
Take the moment of hope
And let it run
And never look back
At all the damage we have done now
To each other
To each other
To each other

But when I see you
It's like I'm staring down the sun
And I'm blinded
There's nothing left to do
and still I see you

and you turn your head, and i kiss your neck. this routine you thought would never fade. i wish i could say that you're the only one to blame. ther'll be no last goodbyes. the encore, it just wont fly tonight, my hopes and i will die, this all will fade inspite. its just like im talking to myself. two worlds, three hearts, and one boy, caught in the middle of a dream. im caught in the middle of a dream. i close my eyes and visit your smile. these moments last forever as i sleep. but ill stay awake to hear you cry, your doubtful tears they keep me in knee-deep. so laugh in my face, cause you should. im a stupid boy who took you for a fool. my veins ran dry and so i smile. and ill eat your heart for life.
and i love her.
ill always devote her above myself.
always.
so dont believe everything you read. there might be something more.
im sorry i did this to u. that was not my intention.

and if you cant forgive, my wrecklessness and ignorance,
i'll completley understand.
but i thought you knew me better then this.

oh please dont hate me























because i dont care.


dont bother me n i wont bother u. im not the same as i was before. i realize that friends are a waist of time. seriously, for me anyways.i dont give a shit if you approve of what i do, or you think its badd or whatever.if you dont like how im running my life, then get the fuck out of it. your not wanted. your opinions dont matter to me. not one bit, and i wont ever care about any thought passing through someone elses head.ive really reached a point where nothing matters to me. and 98% of the "friends" i have are going nowhere, just like me. but if i forget about them, maybe i can get away from where im going. so with one last breathe, id like to say thanks.
you all were almost worth it. ha.